"Whooshing" sound is full throttle now. All is quiet as she rests and I write. So far no big news to share. Willow has a mind of her own, but today is her birthday so I'm gonna let her slide. The quiet gives me time to take in my sterile, birthing suite surroundings and think about what love means. I have been putting off writing about "Agape' love because I fear messing up an explanation or exposing how very little I understand it...let alone express it. But I know this... agape love has nothing to do with the recipient. It is an act based upon the character of the giver...or as I ponder now...the Giver. Jesus Christ loves me when I am so unlovely...so uncooperative...so have a mind of my own that in no way reflects His. How does He do it? Too great a thought for this unlovely loved one. Can I do it...of course I can..."I can do all things through Him who gives me strength"...and then the answer comes...He does it through me...wow! Jesus I ask you now...let me love this lovely creature that prepares to give birth for her fifth time...let me love this yet unseen creature that awaits her first birth...let me lay down my efforts and allow Your Spirit to reside...preside...and love all through me. This is first love...agape love...this is how you first loved me. I must say it again...wow!